Monday, 26 November 2007

Reuben Kee - Miss you forever

Typing this entry with a very heavy heart... Sorry, for this entry, there wouldn't be any jokes, there wouldn't be any laughter and for sure, you wouldn't feel any happiness in it....

I just needed some time on my own to type out my feelings now... I have lost a friend, a buddy, a platoon mate, a section mate and a bunk mate today.

Reuben Kee... My bunk mate in BMTC, Pegasus Company 59th Direct Enhanced Platoon 1, Section 4. 3 months with him make me respect him so much that I look upon him as an elder brother, someone who will always stand up for you and protect you..

He was a very talented man... Composing music, painting etc.... And not forgetting his fitness, he was the only man in our platoon who could do a total of 25pull ups non-stop... while I was a "Zero-fighter" during those days....

During our admin time, he would always ask us down to do pull up with him... in a way training us.... We grew closer when both of us shared a same dream before our POP (Passing out period)... We both wanted to be "MAN" for the rest of our NS life...

As our batch was a commander batch, meaning most of us will end up being officers or specialists.. Hence, chances of us becoming "MAN" was slim... My reason for being a "MAN" - I wanted to become a lifeguard and swim all day with a 8am-5pm vocation where I can book out everyday and be home with my family every night.

His reason - To row for SAFSA. Dragon boating was his love. I believe as much as my love for swimming and triathlons.

Hence, we started to "chao-kin"(thinking of alternatives) to escape whatever ways we can from becoming officers or specialists. We will discuss this issue every day with new and silly ideas everyday... From telling our platoon frenz to list us as the last frenz they like during our "Peer-Appraiser" to not performing our best during team works... Anyway, that we feel can "demote" us to become "Man", We will try...

Eventually, we succeeded. He became a full time rower for safsa and I became a lifeguard for SAF. Of course, we were so happy!

I didn't know about the news of the capsize boat until I read the papers today.. Its' when I saw his unique name, age and photo that I realised, it was him.... MISSING

Now... Its official that he's no longer with us...

I dunnoe what I should say, I dun even noe how I should feel..... And I dun even noe how I'm going to take it.....

I just can't imagine losing 3 friends in a span of just 2 years....

In 2005, I lost my very very very best friend, JiaHui. Cause of death: Drown

A few months later, I lost my best childhood friend, Alvin. Cause of death: Brain Tumor

Now, I lost a very good buddy, Reuben. Cause of death: Drown

Sometimes, I cant help but ask myself... Why? Why are they all leaving me so fast? I'm scared. I have my fears... Are these what a 23year old guy should be going thru? A life test?

My mum asked me... "Why must you kids always worry the parents?" Reuben was the only son in the family..

I dunnoe how to reply her. I told her, every sport has its risks... But 1 old man told me this before that he rather die doing something he love than to die of illness and drag ppl around him.

I really dunnoe what I can say/do now to keep my mum @ ease when I go for triathlons, ironman and marathons. I can only promise her that I will not push myself too hard and stop @ the slightest heart pain if I feel any.

Somehow, I feel the passion of dragon boating in Reuben and I pray for him in the other world...

To ask a sportsmen to give up his love for sport is a very difficult thing to do...

My student ask... "Teacher, why you always go for competition? You also never win... Never win still go there lose for what?"

I said "Winning is not everything... Most important is you enjoy the whole process... Just like how you all enjoy your lessons.. And losing is part of winning and its a form of winning..."

And I think Reuben... You have won the race of life... I'm going to miss you.... Memories of you will always be in both my heart and mind....

And here's the drawing that Reuben drew for our Company Logo... The spirit of Reuben will always fly high like our flag


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Erm....so sorry for your loss. I also lost a dear friend this year in June...he was 35 and died from complications arising from chemo..he had cancer.

Reuben is a talented piano player, and my friend introduce me to his youtube piano recordings just days before this tragedy occurred.

You take care and live life to fullest okie? hugs!

Anonymous said...

Hey bro, life is very unpredictable. One moment everything's fine, the next, everything's gone. Don't take it too hard. I believe Reuben also wants his best friends to live well and strong. Do it for him, at most, for yourself. He also left us because of his favoured sport. It was honorable, representing Singapore, doing his best. I'm sure he's up in the heavens with God, smiling down at us.. :)

I understand how you feel. Alvin was close to us. It was very sudden, but we have to take it as it is. Nothing's gonna change, no turning back. Move on, Stronger, healthier, happier and He that's in the heavens will be happy. :)

Paul